Wednesday, July 28, 2004
lousy day. damn bloody lousy day for me. no mood to do anythin. no one probably even notices me anyway. nvm, u shall b my ony frend. he hates me. dats a definition. he is crazed over by her, dats a confirmation. wat else cani do? dey rlike the main course andi m the extra side dish. owaes forgotten and people over look it often. yeah dats juz like me. isolated. forgotten.i still hav siew yee, pei qi and alcie, my soul frends. other so called"frends" dun tink of my feelings. heartless creeps.i m startin to be filled with sorrow hatred and anger. no one understands me well enough 2 giv me comfort.i need jesus rite at dis moment. i need my heart to be stitched.you heartless beast tore them apart with your own bare hands. worst thing, u dun even realise it. of coz u dun, u too busy thinkin bout her isn't it? u dun consider my feelings? den go and die.stress frm you, homework,frends and family. i dun tink i can hold on any further. oh jesus plz cum andhelp me. giv me a shoulder i can cry on, ears dat i can attend to.daes pass by very badly. everydae turns out 2 b worse den the previous dae.the hole and emptiness in my heart is gettin bigger each passing second.i dun tink i can survive any longer now.i'm gonna break down. fall apart. drop dead.
just did it at 8:04 PM