Friday, August 06, 2004
sigh...the nite is owaes so quiet. somehow, the quietness juz brings me discomfort and makes me feel uneasy. i feel lonely, ignored and weak. omg, juz heard frm my mum dat my sis went 2 the doc and doc said dat her blood pressure low. dear sis, plz stop goin on ur diet. it hurts me seeing u so weak and sickly. plz eat more and dun skip meals. i dun wanna c u land in the hospital. i hate hospitals. hospitals represent death(most of the time)i hate hospitals, dey bring unhapiness and hurt.gd thing, i goin out wif pei qi and alcie 2 ml 2 shop fer yun jia's, li huan's and celeste's b'dae presents. tot of buyin sumthin frm house of stars fer li huan coz she likes 5566. finally, get 2 go out wif my frends and juz relax. exams comin and i still dunoe wat 2 do. i juz wanna get gd grades. i wanna outdo my frends. i m not being arrogant but juz imagine the pressure i m givin myslef. i press myself everydae 2 work hard but no use. mum still tinks dat i slack everydae. i juz dunoe how 2 proof 2 her dat i m tryin my best. tryin my best 2 make her proud of me. somehow, i feel lost. baby, come to me. i need you. you are all dat i want.
just did it at 10:25 PM