Friday, February 18, 2005
ok yes ppl i agree and i admit i hav been 2 rash. at least my anger and frustration were vent. dis suicidal thingy is rilly gd. i'll use it again nxt time i feel down. i'll flood my posts wif suicidal talks. i'll scare ppl out of their wits, making dem think dat dey will find my dead bloody body early in the morning lying at the parade sqaure the nxt morning. naH.... juz jokin. rachel was totally freaked out when i told dis 2 her. wellX... i sorta figured it out, it's no use getting so angry. i believe we'll get through dis yea? things r gonna get beta. i hope so. i guess i'm crazy. 1 moment i get so depressed and all i talk abt is cutting my wrists and wishing i could die instantly without pain. the nxt moment i turn arnd and console myself. m i mental or wat. *sigh* edwin went online juz now. haven spoken 2 him 4 a long long time since the last 6.10 gathering. he said i changed drastically. owellX... i dunoe. yes i feel i change. no longer the nice quiet little gal. ok mebbe now i'm stiu nice but i no longer so quiet. i say wat i wanna sae and i do wat i wanna do. dis is my life. i take full control. accept dat fact wether you like it onot. as for the rumour incident, well wat can i sae. lots hav happened. gina, u aren't as nice as i tot u were. mebbe announcing ur name in public would do gd 2 u yea? stop taking control of my life. stop thinking dat you can ruin everyting. nothing's wrong wif me and dat muz b bad news 4 u rite? 2 bad u dun owaes get wat u wan. i'll never trust a word u sae again. never.
just did it at 11:02 PM