Wednesday, February 02, 2005
sumtimes i rlly wonder...is dere anything wrong wif me? everyone's happy and contented wif wat dey hav. i hav so much yet i feel as if i hav nothing at all. wat i hav is not wat i want. wat i want will never be mine. y does dis owaes happen 2 me? everything i want juz slips away frm me. fine... i'll nv get wat i want. it's owaes dis case isn't it? frends arnd me celebrate and r so hapi. everyone rejoice cept 4 me. yes i act cheerful and hapi in skool. but dats juz an ACT. no one noes how i feel deep inside me. no one will eva noe. coz the me in skool is not the real me. the real me nids sumthing.. sumthing she'll nv get. everyday in skool she acts hapi. when she's alone bak at hm she slips in her depressing state. 4 the last 3 yrs she has been like dat. even now, she's stiu the same. nth ever works rite 4 her. it's all about acting. the real me? no one will never noe.
just did it at 9:42 PM