Thursday, March 31, 2005
finally i'm able to blog again. there was something wrong with blogger last night. some server problem i guess... had S.P.A test yesterday. it was not okay at all. i got the lab assistant to help me because i couldn't turn the airhole of the bunsen burner. it was sort of stuck and tight. and some stupid person went to leave the airhole at maximum so when i lighted the bunsen burner it was full flame. and it was so noisy with gas smell all over. i got so nervous and i tried turning the airhole. obviously that didn't work, it was too tight. and so i got the lab assistant to help me. and she couldn't turn the airhole as well. so she replaced it and gave me another bunsen burner. that was much better and i could turn the airhole. at first i couldn't even light the bunsen burner i was so nervous my hands very shaking. then after trying for about 5 times i realised why the bunsen burner could not light up. all the while i had been pointing the lighter towards the airhole -_-" so i kept trying but no flame came out. so i tried lighting at the tip of the bunsen burner. and it worked. see people? that explains what a failure i am. i can't even light a bunsen burner correctly. the rest of the test was horrible. i forgot to put on that freaking goggles. today was kind of boring also. had p.e then had 3 periods of higher chinese. and good news. i'll have to write a summary of the good earth in more than 500 words. IN CHINESE. how am i going to do that. i don't even know the characters' names in chinese. i'm so going to die. i haven't even prepared my chinese story. i was hoping that i could stay at home all day on saturday so i could do my homework. but suddenly i remembered i have se. shit. no time to do homework afterthat also because i have tuition. i don't like what i'm doing. 忍气吞声 ba... that's all i can do. and meihui's so right. we lead totally different lives. and it's
impossible for us to be together. our paths don't cross. our fates don't meet. 放弃? too difficult. 我放不下. 等待? also difficult. 等到最后还不是一无所有. what shall i do.
just did it at 4:18 PM