Wednesday, March 09, 2005
FUCK.. this time i'm really pissed off. out of 12 assignments on my homework waiting list, i'm so GLAD and HONOURED to say that i'm still STUCK at number 1. i'm stuck at this stupid tian gan di zhi thingy... and no one is willing to help me. i ask my dad. he was watching american idol. and then i saw that he was busy so i said nevemind. then he insisted on helping me so i asked him. and then he explained. too bad i still didn't understand. and so he explained again. until the third time i think he got fed-up then he gave me a lousy excuse and said ' haiya see la i wanted to watch that girl sing wan.... now she sing finish liao.' then he showed me his BLACK face. fine so i siad never mind and i walked off. WTF he's angry just becaused i made him miss his favorite girl sing. i hate this family. everyday i'm growing more tired and sick of this place. i don't like going home anymore. the only few things i like about my home is my bed, my table and my computer. thats all. my mum nags ALL day long and she thinks it's so easy doing everything i have to do now. and my dad. he talks alot of crap and shit normally and then when i seek help from him he uses the tv excuse to chase me away. WTF is this. there's no logic. it's like when i'm lost and helpless, i don't even have anyone to turn to. FINE i'll just stop schooling. i can go help clean toilets or sweep the floor. i can help to sell food in the canteen. anything but come home and face these unbearable people. i give up. i'll just go sleep and then i'll cram everything for tomorrow. you people don't give a damn about me, den i won't give a damn about you people as well. i'll do my stuff and then it's the end. GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE. and yeah btw, have i mentioned to you all that i have a fucking family?
just did it at 10:15 PM