Sunday, April 17, 2005
i'm so tired.. guess i'll sleep soon. came back from swimming and i felt much better.. swimming's a good way to relieve stress and anger... and what a coincidence.. i saw tiffiny at the pool.. sigh somehow i really envy the international school people.. they seem so relaxed.. having my chinese story telling tomorrow.. so stressed up.. i don't know what i'm going to do.. i guess i'll just go up there and do my best. i realised my posts are always full of dots. wonder why. everyone's gone, and i'm left alone. left alone to pick up the pieces, to clear up this ugly mess.. isn't it always this case. no one to tend to. i wish i were dead. or even better, not born at all. i won't be here, blogging my life away just because it's so miserable. what am i doing. sigh i wish there's no school tomorrow, so that i can spend my whole day at home, crying my life away. oh god help me. i feel so disgusted at my ownself.
just did it at 10:34 PM