Saturday, September 10, 2005
hide that i'm back home. i almost died at my granmother's place. no TV, no computer. just sat on the couch from 4 to 9 and stoned. sad case... well, i'm just so glad i'm back home. the night's lonely, not many people are online. even if alot of them are, i don't talk to them. they just happen to be here to help to take up space. tuition tomorrow. my first tuition in 2 weeks. homework's not done, but i can always shake that off easily, after giving excuses about school homework. school willbe resuming on monday. i just hate it. more work, less computer. end of year coming, i just don't have the mood to study. somehow i know that it's important but something in me just tells me to not care at all. i wish my parents don't care, so i can neglect it myself too. but since they fuss over every little matter, i can only put up with them folks and just.. study. maybe not now. just a week before the exams. maybe just browse through some science, geography.cutting my hair tomorrow. i just can't stand my fringe. so bloody long. i need to find something to do. anything? anyone? i need to think of what to do.. dir en grey's music really help alot. therapy i guess. dir en grey is like an umbrella on a rainy day. pimple cream during breakouts. dir en grey just reflects all my anger and hatred. sometimes kyo can really read my mind. and when i finish the dir en grey section of my mp3, i always have to end it off with a word to release all that shit inside me. FUCK. now, that wasn't so bad, was it?
just did it at 10:05 PM